Husband says he doesn't believe in magic. I say then why are you reading a book about magic? He says it isn't about magic, he says it is about plants. I ask why he is so supportive of me if he doesn't believe, and he doesn't answer me.
He doesn't believe? He doesn't want to participate? This hurts me for deeply. Hmmm, I think this means that I truly do believe. Thank you for the confirmation, dear one!
We are finally not sick any longer. This was the worst, weirdest flu I think I have ever had! Now that it is over, it is time to get back in touch with my spiritual side.
One night I woke up so achy I knew I had to do something! I remembered reading about connecting with everyone and everything; imagining lines of light that connects us all. So I felt myself tingle and light up, and I connected with my children Brandy and Tessa lit up the quickest, when I "touched" them, but Tessa burst into glowing light. That is my healthy little girl! Bruce was a little harder, and I concentrated on healing us and making us better. After Bruce I reached out for Austin who was the sickest of us all. When I got to him, parts of him were in shadow, like a blankness streaking his body. It was harder to connect with him, which didn't surprise me since he has PDD NOS (an autism spectrum disorder). But it was the darkness that concerned me. I worked with him until he was fully glowing as well, concentrating on happy, healthy and whole- mind, body and spirit. After working with my children, I instinctively connected with my husband, who was over a thousand miles away. Time and space are an illusion; this is something I firmly believe and this experience confirmed this. I knew where he was, what the place looked like, and I saw his sleeping shape. I knew he was getting sick also (he drank out of my Pepsi, I told him not to!) and we connected, he lit up and I thought healing thoughts. Then I connected with one of his parents; this happened unintentionally. He was staying at his parents house. The first form lit up quickly, like Tessa, but the second form was almost entirely dark like Austin. There was only a spark, and this form didn't seem connected to the lines of light. I tried and tried to connect but failed, so I, again instinctively, reached out through the form sleeping next to him. I imagined what I think to be Wolf's mother's hand touching Wolf's father's hand in her sleep. What happened next amazed me. He lit up in a burst of the brightest, whitest light! But then it seemed she was draining of light; I think this may be because she was his only link! He is very sick; he has MS. So I quickly centered his energy, thinking about healing mind, body and spirit. This stopped the siphoning, and I centered Wolf's mom, Wolf, the kids and myself.
I have no idea where the idea for this came from. I didn't even mean for it to happen. I know that Austin's problem is genetic, because everyone says he just acts like the rest of the men in Wolf's family. It is a social disorder, but I never thought how deeply it could go. I hope the darkness I saw in Austin is related to this only, and that he is not physically sick. I know that I need to work with him to heal him spiritually. He is young yet, and there is hope for him. I need to focus and remember to help him. I need to research ways to do this. He has genuine interest in meditating and in dumping negative energy. I should do these exercises with him daily but have been forgetting. This is partly because we were sick and I myself was getting depressed again.
I am pretty sure the dark form at my in-laws was my FIL. My MIL can be negative at times, but she is very healthy and hardly ever gets sick. She can be very nice when her life is going good. My FIL is very anti social and internal. I think he is Autistic as well, and I know he is very ill. I hope this exercise helped them as well as us. I tried to banish this flu, and we did get better. Austin was getting better, then he would go to school for a day, but he would get sick all over again. This stopped happening.
Last night Tessa woke up and vomited, and Austin's tummy hurt, but I am going to assume it is linked to eating lunchables yesterday. They didn't have the same dinner, but they both had cold lunch. I got the items from the same store. The kids are fine now. Brandy still has a low grade fever and a cough, but the nurse who gave her shots said it could be allergies and just to watch her. Bruce is very healthy and has his appetite back, but is still a bit ornery.
Any tips on helping Austin stay connected and spiritual healing would be appreciated. I know that positive people live healthier lives. I learned that in college. :D
Also, if anyone knows what the hell happened that night, I sure would appreciate it. I have to go now.
Until next time!
...and practicing magic. I am just down with the flu.
I have done some money spells, that seem to be working, as well as a spell for a family member. I am really into elemental magic.
I am not so much into dieties, for the time being at least.
My studies are on hold, like I said, I am sick and so are three of my kids.
I work in trade- new blog designs for Candy and something from my wishlist for me. She picked out the BoS from Raven Moonlight, that I have been coveting, and now it's here. I spent yesterday just smelling it! It is a handmade blank paged book- with a cream colored leather cover. It smells like spices- even the heavy paper. It is wonderful!
On its way is a piece of wood that I found on eBay. Not just any piece of wood, but a special piece of wood from a special type of tree that unfortunately succumbed to the land owner's landscaping. The daughter is saving what she can from is branches, and making wands from them. She also offers plain pieces, for those who wish to craft their own. It is this that is on its way, and I am very excited about its arrival.
1) One book that changed your life:
Jacob have I loved
I hated the ending of this book. I hated that Louise settled. It made me want to write, so that I could make others feel that kind of pain, too. Its been over 15 years andI am not the same person. I think I should read it again.
2) One book that you'd read more than once:
Chronicles of Narnia
All books by Anne McCaffrey
3) One book you'd want on a deserted island:
How to survive on a deserted island
4) One book that made you laugh:
Rotten School by RL Stein
5) One book that made you cry:
Jacob have I loved
6) One book you wish you'd written:
7) One book you wish had never been written:
Death of a Salesman- so highschoolers can have something good to read.
Snowbound- so I wouldn't have had to watch the movie.
8) One book you're currently reading:
9) One book you've been meaning to read:
Memoirs of a Geisha- I need to finish this.
You can thank Candace from Chapterhouse for tagging me.